I am 18 years old (almost 19), but since puberty I was attracted to girls. However, I always had these feelings towards guys which I could not control. What I mean is that when I am close to a guy (who is nice and smart), I cant stop thinking of kissing him and sometimes (having sex with him and being with him), and when I am touched by a guy, I get turned on (but twice less than by girls). When I was 14 years old, I was depressed about these feelings, so I told myself to stop thinking about it and come back to this when I am a little bit older, and that's what I did. Since 2 weeks ago, I came back to this, and it took me a week to accept that I might be bisexual, and I am a lot happier because it explains why I have these feelings, but then I did some research, and I found out that most of the teenagers have this phase (phase of being interested in the same gender), So is it possible that I am just heterosexual who is just interested in guys? If thats the case then how long it will still last? and why I have such strong feelings toward guys?
Please do not misunderstand this. What I meant is that fantasize about doing this, but I do it subconsciously, and I do not understand why it happens.
My best friend is a gay male.. with bisexual tendencies. He pretty much went through what you're going through, he had a few girlfriends but there was always the attraction to guys. He's been a lot happier since he realised what he was. It is true some people do go through a phase, but if yours has lasted 4 years chances are its more than that
If the feelings have lasted for four years, I doubt it would be a phase, and you will probably continue to have these feelings. That is just how your brain is wired. You might want to start by checking out this wikipedia article if you want to know more about how this works. Sexuality is fluid though, you don't necessarily have to label yourself. You may be more attracted to males at one point and females later on. It's probably not a good idea to repress your feelings or worry over them too much.
I highly doubt it's a phase. If you're 18 and you're still getting these fantasies about men and urges to have sex with them, you're more than likely to be bisexual. However, I, or anyone else can not tell you what you are - only you can know that for yourself. Nobody can answer your questions because there are no answers to give, you have to figure out what you do/don't like and who you are for yourself. Love your sexuality and don't be ashamed to have it. Even if you don't feel you want to tell anyone, use it to your advantage and make your sex life even better!
I agree with you Morph 100%. Since I have admitted that I am bisexual, I watch gay and straight porn and I love it!
