Am I gay? or whatever with a phase?

Hey,

So here it goes, I have read a lot of the questions on here so I will do my best to avoid the generic (AM I GAY?) single question. So this is a question that can be answered as fact (so if you could tell me what your answer to this question is if you had to choose one of the three possibilities (A- GAY) (B - Bi but more gay...) (C)- BI (D) straight and going through a phase later than most people.... (E) Straight for the most part.

I am 27 and I have NEVER dated a woman in the traditional sense. I had sex with 3 different chicks when I was in high school and in my first year at college.... I was never able to orgasm.... i was frustrated from this. I have always found gay men attractive go back as far as I can recall.

Likely I was fantasizing in more innocent (non- sexual) ways as far back as kindergarten.... I wanted to grow up and live with a boy (man) I had said it and adults said.... someday you will see that you like girls and you will be happy. Coodies? perhaps..... Just not interested....In middle school I would have friends talking endlessly about hot girls and I joined in... We always were looking at playboys and other nude women pictures. I was interested in the female body. Indeed I thought that I may be able to get a girlfriend that I wanted to be with and would enjoy having romantic feelings for her.

I ended up going on a few family vacations that inadvertently allowed me to experience provincetown mass. and NYC's village.... I was sooo turned on all that year thinking back to the guys I had seen.... I would then force myself to look at a picture of nude women having sex (usually lesbian) and try to have that be "what got me off" as I came into an age where I began jerking off.... odd? seemed to be good to me and I was sure that the guy turn ons were fading.. and that I was going to now find a gf and be on my way to the rest of my life....

After this phase and more frustrations with the girls (I thought trying to get with a chick was never worth the effort, but I still attempted to be with them). I still was thinking of men over 90% or more of the time when I was pleasuring myself. I still kept the girly mags around and believed that it was those mags that were responsible for my orgasm the other thoughts were going to slow down and stop nearing the end of high school.... not so much... got to college and stopped my pursuit all together... then I was content to fantasize of gay men and then try to stop the thought nearing orgasm in favor of the previous lesbian porn (pseudo- attractions) I had previously gotten off to.

Twice a few years back I went to a "gay bookstore" that was owned and dedicated to the gay community... I was not really wanting to come out as gay... and I think that I was confused and just getting a thrill from the simple idea of interaction with the clearly gay staff there. At one point I asked for help locating a coming out guide... the lesbian employee was very nice and helpful.... I repeated this a few months later with the purchase of a gay men's erotica book...

I played it off as being too academically busy to date... well... that is still where I am at.

This action would make up my guilt and my ultimate turn on... I was getting sick of this and tried AGAIN to stop thinking about it.... I am 27... I am still in this area and joined a few gay social networks where I have made a small group of friends online that (most are lesbians) that I chat with and just joke about the guys I wish I could get with....

so I am looking for a simple straitforward opinion (if possible) and a brief reason for the answer....

Thanks SO MUCH!!!

-Steve

I played it off as being too academically busy to date... well... that is still where I am at.