How deep can denial go? I am constantly worrying that I'm in denial of my own sexuality and that I might actually want to be with a girl at this point in my life. I consider myself bisexual currently and I have a boyfriend. We have been in a serious relationship for a year and while I do love him, I find that when we are around other cute girls I am worried that my boyfriend will ward them off with his PDA. There were so many gorgeous "alternative" girls at this party last night my head was spinning. I also ran into a girl I hooked up two weeks ago at this bar. My boyfriend was with me (he knows I hooked up with her). I got this horrible feeling in my stomach...I can't describe it. I was so upset. I'm not romantically attracted to her but I felt so shitty for some reason. I thought I was happy in my relationship with my boyfriend. I thought I wanted to grow old with him and get a dog and be partners forever. Every time I ignore my attraction to women my frustration goes away and I feel fine. Whenever I become fixated on my sexuality I feel very unhappy and confused. I'm also interested in talking to a therapist about this but I'm too embarrassed to talk about this to anyone. I've been dealing with this for a long time. I couldn't handle being gay. I'd be embarrassed if it turned out I am actually straight. But I know I've fallen in love with men before and that I'm sexually attracted to women. ---------- Post added 6th Apr 2013 at 01:35 PM ---------- Shoot. I meant for this to be in the Sexual Orientation category. Can someone move it? I can't figure out how to delete it.
I know this isn't much help but this is why people need to take bisexuality more serious. I think it's worse than gay or straight as far as the confusion goes. I'm bi myself so I totally get the confusion part of it. I wish I could help but the best I can do is say I understand your frustration.
I just accepted myself as bi and gotta say i feel ya...hopefully after the bi step itll all be down hill from here
