Hi my names M, I'm 23 years old and am very confused lol. I grew up with a family that does not like anything different. So naturally, I hid my true feelings. I finally met a great guy and moved out of my parents house and got an apartment with my boyfriend. previous to this I only dated one other guy. Being out on my own I have been trying to figure out who I am and want to be now that I'm free from my family. I realized that I'm very much attracted to females. This scares me greatly because I'm afraid of being judged and hurting the people I love. I am still with my boyfriend (3 years now). I love him a lot, hes my best friend and I don't know what i would do without him. when I look at women i get very aroused, more than when i look at men. Ive never done anything with a woman, and I've only been with two men sexually. Me and a girl i like were flirting and sending nude pics to one another and i was so excited and aroused by the thought of actually doing it. I've never felt so aroused sexually. But unfortunately, when we decided to actually go through with it, she cancelled. I was heart broken. my boyfriend new about everything that was happening, i have been very honest to him about everything. The other thing is when i watch lesbian porn or anything involving girls me and my boyfriends sex is so much better. I guess I just need help figuring out what to do. Thanks, M
Porn isn't always the best and most reliable indicator as a lot of people say here. Do you think you could a life without trying sex with a female?
Honestly no I feel like I need to try so I know who I am. I feel like I'm hiding a secret and I'm not being myself fully. its not just porn either its any woman i find attractive.
