I came across this forum and feel relieved in a way that I can share this with others anonymously. Anyways, I'm in my last year of high school and I'm confused. I've only been with one guy before and we only kissed a few times and to be honest it felt cold and I didn't enjoy it very much. I've had crushes on guys and find gay male porn -nice- lets say. I've always been a tomboy and liked guy things, but am comfortable being female and don't have any desire to be otherwise. I didn't second guess that I might not be straight until recently (besides the time when my gran thought I was- awkward lemme tell you). There's this one girl. That's it, one girl that I find very attractive. I'm surprised, I guess, that I have feelings for her since I practically convinced myself I'm straight and since I find guys physically attractive. See it's funny though because I could see myself in a relationship with another girl but the sex part isn't there so much. But I would much rather run through meadows with this girl and adopted a kid (I've always wanted to adopt a child) and live happily every after. I might even move to San Fran. Maybe. So my question is, is it possible that I'm building myself up thinking that I'm gay or bi when I'm really not. I know there's not a "right" answer that's going to solve everything but it's bothering me a lot recently that I don't know "who I am" so to speak. I don't want to do anything I'll regret. Also, I think I'm afraid to be with a girl because of what other people will think.
In my personal experience, it is possible to have a crush on someone you don't really entertain the idea of sleeping with. I'm Panromantic, which means anyone who is kind catches my attention romantically. However, I am sexually attracted to feminine qualities... thus women. Sexuality can be quite complicated can't it? On the other hand, you may just have a "bramance." It's where you'd like to act like a couple with another girl without the sexual aspect of it. You feel secure with them and it sometimes borders on romantic intent.
