I'd like some answers for a similar issue with me, I watched and enjoyed and got hard to lesbian and straight porn since I was 10 and found out how to act on these hard on's when I was 12. I also had romantic feelings for some women I knew as well, but I never acted on my romantic crushes in Jr. High and High School because I have a fear of rejection. I also lied about having a girlfriend when I first started Jr. High because I wanted to keep up with the older kids there, I was 11 when I started Jr. High and they were 13 when I entered Jr. High. Most of my crushes were in high school mostly because I found out how to masturbate which released some inhibitions in me. I want to get close to women, cuddle with them and kiss them, I am currently 18; in college and confused due to constant intrusive thoughts about the same sex and constant questions of my past as to weather or not I did 100% enjoy those feelings, thoughts and emotions. I want to know because I have feelings for a woman I know on the internet, and I want to know if these feelings are genuine.
I`m a bit confused, why is it that you are questioning whether or not your feelings for this woman are genuine? What is making you question whether you might be bisexual or gay? Have you had feelings for other guys as well? Felt attracted to one?
I ask it because I have been having these thoughts of men, I am not attracted to those thoughts what so ever but I have heard cases of homosexuals who literally thought they were straight for their entire life but later found out they were gay. I at the moment have no attraction towards other men, but constantly question myself and my past.
