hey guys, this is a very simple post and I just need you to listen and that's it really. I've been "bi" for 2-3 years, "lesbian" for 1 year and "straight" for a month or so. Now I'm wondering whether I'm asexual or not. This is so ridiculous, honestly. I'm not asexual, I can't be. I mean... omg, I don't want to be. Please just tell me I'm not asexual, please just tell me, nothing else matters right now, please tell me I'm normal; I felt so happy when I realized that I didn't find girls attractive anymore so please just tell me I find boys attractive, please, I'm so disappointed in myself right now and I honestly feel like hurting myself so please tell me I'm normal in the sense of being the way I want to be. Please just tell me I'm heterosexual. Please. I don't know what to do.
.....well first of all, please calm down. hurting yourself will not help anything. what exactly do you feel is wrong with being bisexual, homosexual or asexual...? just because the majority of society may be heterosexual does not make being anything else abnormal. just as their is naturally occurring diversity in skin color, eye color, height, language, etc there is naturally occurring diversity in sexuality. what's abnormal about that? i'm afraid myself and others will have a hard time helping you without really knowing what's causing you to feel the way you do.
Sorry for such a confusing thread, I kinda freaked out yesterday... So here's what happened: 1.) I thought I was straight "again" because I realized I didn't like girls in THAT way. 2.) "So...", I figured, "I MUST be straight again, right?!" 3.) the happy phase; telling everyone I'm straight 4.) trying to date a guy again 5.) kinda weird "I like you (I think so but I'm not entirely sure, you're totally my type but yeah)"-phase 6.) trying to kiss him (I mean; I really like him, right?) 7.) I feel nothing. Literally nothing. I felt his tongue and his lips and how he touched me but there. was. nothing. Nothing at all. I acted normal and went home, thinking nothing weird of it. Then I thought "well, maybe he doesn't turn me on, that's normal" I watched some porn but didn't touch myself, because I knew that my body would definitely react if I did and I wanted to know the reason. Nothing happened. I didn't feel disgusted and I didn't feel turned on. Just nothing, maybe a little bit uncomfortable, but nothing else. So yesterday I tried pretty much the same thing again and NOTHING happened and I totally freaked because I was so happy when I thought I was straight "again", I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life (woah, that sounded offending... sorry :/)... So yeah, that's why I freaked out. I used to think that I was asexual a few years ago but then I "found out" that I was gay so it was only natural for me to not be turned on by the opposite sex. Well, turns out MY WHOLE LIFE IS A LIE Ó_Ò I just don't know what to do exactly. I don't want to be alone, like... really. I'm scared.
hey bublegum don't worry, you feel what you want to feel and love who you want to love, don't get yourself so stressed, don't listen to anyone else's views because those who judge don't matter. you are completely normal so don't worry about anything
