So, for a while now, I've been struggling to come to a conclusion as to exactly who I am, and I think I've figured it out now. I came out as gay to people originally, but about the beginning of May this year I started to be unsure again. Also, I've had feelings that I'm not exactly "male", either. I mean, I was born as a guy, and physically, I'm fine with that. But, mentally, I'm not so sure. Sometimes I feel like a guy, and sometimes I feel like a girl. And up until recently, I wasn't even sure of my orientation. Also, for the crowd who doesn't like labels, I kinda do like labels, at least for myself, it gives me a way to explain who I am to people without having to go into long explanations. I can just say, "I'm (label)", and not have to explain stuff. Anyway, I think I've finally been able to realize what's going on in my head. I think that, to give it a label, I'm a genderfluid biromantic homosexual. I can't see myself in bed with a girl, but I can see myself in a romantic relationship, or at least having romantic feelings towards a girl, and I feel at times like I'm a girl, but sometimes I feel like a guy. So, I really don't know why I'm posting this, to be honest. I guess I'm just kinda, not really happy, but more like, able to think more clearly now that this matter has been cleared up. I feel like I know myself just a bit better now. It also gives me an explanation as to why I connect to a game better when I'm playing a female character, I guess. Which, I will admit, that's something that's been on my mind quite a bit the past few days, and is now kinda cleared up. I'm probably still going to come out to people as gay, and if they ask for a bit more of an explanation, go a bit more into detail. Cause honestly, I feel as though I'd rather spend my life with a guy, but I'm open to a relationship with a girl. Anyways, I'm gonna wrap this up here, since I still really don't know why I'm posting this, and y'all are probably a bit more interested in a quicker read (although it's been so long since I've been on here, I might be confusing it with another board).
