I'm 30 but still unsure if I'm a lesbian. For a long time I identified as bi/pan but I always thought I'd end up with a man. I thought I leaned toward the straight side of things. 2 guys making out is hot to me...like more so than a hetero couple making out. But now that I'm really thinking about it sex with a man isn't that appealing to me. Maybe its just the type of girl that is everywhere. I seem to like more soft butch women. So I've had a hard time knowing if I'm a lesbian because I never come across women that I'm really attracted to. WHERE are all the butches? If there were more around or if they were represented in the media I could have figured this out a long time ago! I guess when the only man that has ever turned you on enough to want to have sex with him is Adam Lambert maybe that should have been a sign huh? :lol: Can any lesbian relate to being turned on by guys kissing? Is it because you like more masculine women? Or am I bi? I'm starting to doubt that label for myself.....????
Were you watching gay porn? Because it's funny how many lesbians are into gay porn. My personal theory is that many lesbians want to see non-hetero porn, but lesbian porn is usually two straight girls doing stuff for the benefit of guys.
I have watched gay porn. I would look for youtube videos of straight guys drunk at parties making out. I watched some German soap opera just for a gay story line. Actually I watched a British one too. It's funny that they had a lesbian story line too but I didn't really care for that one. I like the show Queer as Folk (gay man oriented) much better than The L Word. But maybe because QAF was SO much better (the writing the characters ect.) And you're right so called "lesbian" porn is usually gross and obviously made for straight men. I don't enjoy it at all. It disgusts me. This is another reason why I thought I wasn't gay and was more straight and only slightly bi. I don't know. I'm kinda freaking out. I never ID'd as gay. I keep saying it out loud to myself. I just feel so incredibly stupid!
