I've basically been straight all my life. Always into girls, had crushes on them often, dated them and never had any thoughts about men. But the last year, I started to become paranoid that I was maybe secretly gay and not aware of it. Since Im pretty adicted to (straight) porn, mostly anal stuff, I did anal masturbation a couple of times but at the time didnt think much about it, but later I started to realize, hey thats weird other straight dudes probably dont do this. This started an ongoing 24/7 debate with myself to find out if I had any attraction to other men. I would often check if I had any atraction to any guy I saw in movies, on the street, etc. Never really felt the attraction, but I kept thinking what if Im not aware of it or in denial? So I ended up checking some gay porn to see if I liked it. And I didnt really like it, but kept trying frantically to masturbate over it to see if I was fighting back any atraction. Then I felt like I could finish and I panicked. Why would that happen if I didnt have any atraction to males? That must mean Im gay. I said to myself, hey Ill accept myself whatever my preferences are, since I know thats pretty much hardwired at birth and it would be pointless trying to change it or supress it. But Im just so confused, theres tons of girls I find really atractive and hot, and none guys. Even tried looking at a bunch of good looking dudes photos to see if I liked any, but not really. So any help? I cant stop thinking about this, it has paralyzed my whole life. I would be fine if im gay but I just want to know for certain, and its like I cant??
Honesty, it sounds as if you're straight. Maybe a hint of bisexual, but from what you're saying, it doesn't really sound as if you think of guys in a romantic or sexual way. Being gay means that you can only see yourself being with a person of the same gender. Holding hands with them in public. Kissing. Falling in love. Sharing an entire lifetime together. If you feel like this for girls and guys, you could be bisexual, as I mentioned earlier. Just take your time in figuring out who you are. Maybe you'll feel more attracted to men in the future, maybe not. I wish you the best of luck in sorting this all out!
I sincerely doubt you're gay. Just because you can get off to gay porn doesn't mean much, I could get off to lesbian porn if I tried. When I look at pretty women, I think "she's quite a good-looking woman", but in the same way that if I looked a painting by Van Gogh, I'd think "that's a good-looking painting". I don't even think about doing sexual things to women (and I'm a pretty masculine gay guy). Ultimately I want to (and have) fall in love with another guy and raise a family together. So if none of this resonates with you (and based on your post, I don't think it will), I really wouldn't worry about it. So you may appreciate a good-looking guy now and then, so what? Being gay, is a lot more than that. Just relax a bit, and I think you'll see your fear start to fade away.
I don't think that you are gay but also I can't tell you that you are straight. The human nature is very complicated .. for me till now I dont know my sexual orientation ,I think I am attracted to guys sexually but not emotionally and I cant imagine my life with a man . But anyway dont think about it too much ..just relax and go back to your life
