Hello,I really hope that here I can find support and hope....ok I have issues with my sexuality for a lon long time and I always been fighting with myself . I am raised in religious family and thats why I stop sex with other guys two years ago....I stop watchin gay porn too. But recently started again...and ...I dont know what to say.... Thats for now !
First off, welcome! I know this has to be really hard to handle, but its going to be okay. There is nothing wrong with who you are and there is nothing wrong with your sexuality. You told us that your family doesn't approve of it all. What about you? How do you feel about the whole thing? What are you afraid of?
I made this step because of God,of the religion,maybe cause the boys have always rejecting me(heterosexuals) and mocking at me.And I think if I live my life as gay I will not be accept and loved by ppl,God and my life would suck. Cause I dont think Bible and my behaviour can match and I have to choose between God and gaylife. And two years ago as I said I quit gaylife,stop almost all my relatonships with gays and stop sex and trying to reduce as much as I can thoughts for other boys...the thing is that I couldnt accept myself when I "was gay" and this way I feel a little comfortable but still cant fully realize why I made it,and it sems like I already made my decision,but I still have doubts and recently start watching gayporn again and blaiming myself why i do it. Im sorry if I made mistakes but Im from euope. So my quieston is should I go on,cause I dont want all my life to be rejected by boys and not get along with them, I want to comunicate the way that I communicate witoh the other half of humanity....i need something to hold on to,to know that I am on the right path or not....Thats what I need.I can write seven days without stopping. But thats for now,bye and thanks for writing to me. I really need somenone,, ---------- Post added 29th Jun 2013 at 10:10 PM ---------- And I know Im gay,Im not wondering!
