Should Have Realized You Were Gay When..

When...my desktop had collages of Brian Molko, Jay Gordon, Brandon Boyd, Gavin Rossdale and being more interested in Adrian from No Doubt than Gwen Stefani. When I dated girls from 5th grade on and never wanted to do more than hold hands. Being happy when a gay boy stopped talking to my gf when he found out we were dating, because she knew he liked me first. Missed opportunity there.

 

1.When I got extremely jealous of my female friends having other female friends
2. When I realized I only got sexually aroused by women and men did nothing for me
3.when I wanted to sleep with other women very badly
4. When it's hard for me to resist women sexually,but itwas easy with men
5 . The desire just wasn't there for men
6. Only wanted to marry women
7. Only wanted kids with women.
8. Wanted to become a nun so I wouldn't have to marry men.

 

8. Wanted to become a nun so I wouldn't have to marry men.[/QUOTE]

That is so funny about wanting to be a nun. I thought the exact same thing. I wanted to be a nun so I wouldn't have to face my sexuality. :lol:

 

I really liked it when this music video showed up on MTV. And I wasn't looking at the girl.

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Lex

 

When I used to be binary- cisfemale: I kind of had a feeling I was possibly gay when my straight friend (who has the weird tendency to grope all the girls by grabbing/touching their boobs and we all just accepted it because it's her, and she's just funny/openly sexual like that) and she always groped me. More so than the rest and I admit, it was a bit of a turn on since I've never been touched that way by another female >.> I swear if virginity was based on touching alone, I would be classified as Experienced...

After I realized I was non-binary and queer: I had the total hots for a fellow non-binary person. I had met them at this shopping event for non-binary peeps and while at the mall, they tried on this dress and I think I drooled. @_@ They were utterly gorgeous in my opinion...so yeah. :3

 

I should have realized I was trans when:
I hated playing with Barbies when I was little. When my friend wanted me to, I liked cutting the hair short.
I hated wearing dresses and girl's clothing because it didn't feel right.
I felt a brief moment of happiness when someone accidentally called me by a male pronoun or mistook me for actually being a boy.
At track camp, when all the guys were taking off their shirts, not only was I drooling over how attractive they were, like the girls, but I was so jealous of the guys' bodies as well and had bad feeligs toward them because of it.

 

When I got excited to watch gay porn for the first and couldn't stop watching it... that was when I was 12. I don't blame myself, while I was ashamed of watching such porn in my private school the preacher was saying how homosexuality is a sin and gays are going to hell.

 

When I couldn't think of a single hot girl at school when my mates asked. Of course, I didn't find any of the guys in my class in the least bit attractive :rolle:.

 

When I enjoyed cuddling with another boy at sleepovers in grade 4.
When I started watching straight porn and never paid any attention to the girl.
When girls complimented me or showed interest and I wanted nothing to do with them.

Denial is a terrible thing and when you're in it, it takes a hold of you and it can take a very long time to get out of it.

 

When I wasn't interested in boys when all the girls suddenly did and so when pressured and pushed just picked the first good-looking celebrity to crush on (which did not last long)

When I couldn't tell if I was the man or woman in fantasies.

When I identified with male protagonists in books or movies always, unless there was a really cool, tough woman in it who was more than the love interest.

Having Joan of Arc, Calemity Jane, Amelia Erhardt, Captain Janeway etc. as rolemodels.

 

When I tried fantasizing about guys but couldnt, not even my ex-boyfriend while we were dating.
When I kept telling my ex I was jealous of his underwear/clothing in general. I wanted to wear all his things.
When I went around polling my guy friends about whether or not they liked performing oral on a girl and then asking them what it was like, uh, in detail.
When I turned red talking to the sales rep for a piece of equipment at work, she was beautiful and I was like, "oh I probably am nervous talking to her because she's so pretty I'm intimidated by the competition or something."
When my friend and I would third-wheel my ex-boyfriend.

Probably some more.

 

When I wanted to buy some colorful satin boxers at 14.

 

When I was unnaturally infatuated with the sailor scouts on Sailor Moon, with their naked transformations, skimpy skirts and legs. I used to crush on Sailor Mars real bad.

When I couldn't stop staring at disney princesses bodies, cleavage and curves. My fascination with Xena's gorgeous body and her connection with Gabriel.

When I used to draw a line on every female neckline as 'cleavage' in my story books and text books, and get tingly down there doing so, under 10 years old.

When I used to feel up my barbie dolls and could not get enough of that one really curvy barbie I had once (more realistic body). Made barbies make out, i think. I do remember making barbie dolls touch me though.. Tee hee.

When my hot teen neighbour whispered into my ear that she thinks she is a lesbian after her and I and her sis watched porn once (discovering), and I turned red as hell.

When that same neighbour would strip and stroll naked around the house a couple of times when I was visiting her sis, as if showing off. Was a major turn on cuz she was omg freakin hot...wanted to keep looking but her sis pulled me away lol.

When I looked at pretty girls at school and saw what guys would see in them. Would measure them up as a good catch, hot, or interesting..

When my friends would ask me what guys I found hot and I was extremely picky and barely found any, celebrities or otherwise.

When I had crushes on girls in high school and imagined touching them.

When I met my best friend and got turned on when we would mess around (jokingly grope and teach eachother how to kiss).


When my attraction towards boys was nothing compared to my attraction towards women. I liked guys and crushed on them, but for their personality and edginess, since the girls i grew up around were copies of one another, no diversity or interesting intellect. (i was also mature for my age).
Plus I never considered the possibility of pursuing women when I believed boys were who girls dated and that was it. I grew up in Egypt.

When I would peek and check out friends when changing together.

When I would get turned on whenever a girls soft cool arm brushed up against mine while sitting next to eachother.

When I could think of a hundred hot women and only a handful of men.

When I felt numb and disconnected doing anything physical with boyfriends.

When naked male bodies did nothing for me, and could not understand my female friends infatuation with them.

When male bodies seemed to be missing something..

When my attraction towards women intensified suddebly last year during a spiritual crisis and there was no longer any reason to label it as sinful and wrong, and had no reason to suppress it anymore.

 

I should've realised when all my life I've only ever had crushes on women - friends, teachers, celebs etc, but never on men! I used to pretend to friends I did, but I never really "got" what they did re guys. I actually can't believe it has taken me till I was 34 to realise!!!

My defining moment when I actually realised I probably was, was last Oct, out for a meal and drinks with the girls. They were all going round the table asking which hot male celebs they all swooned over. I was mainly not paying much attention, then someone asked me... and I didn't have a clue! I could've given ten hot females but not even one male! So I just said what the last chick had said, Leonardo Di Caprio. That was the moment I started admitting to myself that I'm probably a lesbian.

 

getting off to women before i even realized what getting off was or that liking women was a thing

when all the fifth grade girls were swooning over celebrities and i tried so hard to feel the same obsession for legolas but my god i just couldnt do it, they were all boy crazy and i felt so defective because i couldnt get that way about them ):

also all the lesbian sim families i had in sims 2 around this time

 

Hmmmmm. Maybe when I kissed a girl in 1st grade. Or when I only played with boys, and cried because I wasn't a boy from 2nd grade on. Or when I started flipping directly to the lingerie pages in the JC Penney and Sears catalogs. Or when I wore boy clothes the second half of my teens and my early 20s. Or when the only person I ever was in love with was my first girlfriend, despite being married to men. Or when I never even thought about looking at another man during my last marriage, but was constantly crushing on women.

 

That is so funny about wanting to be a nun. I thought the exact same thing. I wanted to be a nun so I wouldn't have to face my sexuality. :lol:[/QUOTE]

Me too - have wanted to be a nun on and off all through my life! Mine:

1.That bit in Titanic where Rose poses for a portrait :icon_redf
2.Being obsessed with the female body/secondary sexual characteristics as a pre-adolescent - oggling pictures of sexually mature girls rather too much in puberty books...
3. Staring too much at other girls in the showers at school - and being picked up on it
4. Jealousy around close female friends at school - wanting them for my own
5. Looking at pictures of women in underwear in my mum's clothes catalogues as a little girl
6. Being asked by my brother at the age of 14 - "are you gay?" - and me answering no (but at the time thinking "possibly, yes" - this is one I only remembered recently)
7. Having lots of boyfriends at school to conform, but not quite getting what it was I was supposed to like about them.
8. Never understanding why girls got so excited over boybands/jonny depp/images of scantily clad men/peter andre/diet coke man
9. Feeling repulsed when guys in street/bars/clubs tried to come on to me, and actively avoiding it
10. Feeling pretty asexual as a teenager
11. Kylie Minogue in "Spinning Around" when I was 18
12. Dreaming about "doing" my first year female friend at Uni in the shower - she was erm... rather well blessed
13. "Show and Tell" on numerous occasions with a female friend in primary school
14. Never feeling very girly or feminine
15. Playing with fairly androgynous toys - i.e. not liking dolls, chess, lego, astronomy

 

When I used to play princes and princesses with my friend Leanne. I was always the princess, naturally, and I loved being rescued <3

When I had a shower that one time with my (female) then-best friend.

When I couldn't sleep a wink next to this girl I had a sleepover with (which sounds far dirtier than it was)... I might have kept asking to go to her house.

When I used to have a phobia of penises, but more specifically, testicles. No offense to anyone on here who has this equipment!

When I shared a first kiss with the first girl I fell hard for, and then when I realized that it felt 10,000 times more intense than anything I did with the long-term boyfriend that I'd left 6 months prior. I was heartbroken when she went back to her home country - we Skyped nearly every damn day for months.

I still can't realize that I am pretty much fully gay, for the minimal confused feelings I have for men. See 'Orientation section on profile'. Then again, these things aren't entirely black and white, are they...?

 

When I caught myself looking at guys in public places... and when my female game characters had straight relationships, even if they had a lesbian option (i.e. Mass Effect)

And when I noticed I liked porn scenes with well endowed guys in them...

Started about 2 years ago I guess. Hard to pinpoint exactly.

 

Early: when kids would call me sissy and faggot and girly, when my friends would look at magazines with hot women and it did nothing for me, when I couldn't wait to go to the pool (not for the swimming, but for the locker room)

Later: when I first started masturbating and my mind drifted toward guys and never girls, when I first fooled around with a guy and it was amazing

Now: realizing that I can only be my true self in a relationship if it's with a man, and finding middle aged men hotter and hotter even though they (and I!) are past our peaks