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Has your LGBT issues directly lead to you contemplating suicide?

Discussion in 'Chit Chat' started by SonicBoom, Jan 31, 2015.

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Have you ever contemplated suicide? Please read all options carefully

  1. YES and LGBT issues contributed 100% to my contemplating.

    7 vote(s)
    9.0%
  2. YES and LGBT issues contributed 75 % to my contemplating.

    12 vote(s)
    15.4%
  3. Yes and LGBT issues contributed 50% to my contemplating

    14 vote(s)
    17.9%
  4. Yes and LGBT issues contributed 25% to my contemplating.

    14 vote(s)
    17.9%
  5. Yes and LGBT issues contribute zero% to my contemplating

    12 vote(s)
    15.4%
  6. NO, I HAVE NEVER CONTEMPLATED SUICIDE FOR ANY REASON

    19 vote(s)
    24.4%
  1. SonicBoom

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    First, if you are suicidal right now please tell someone who cares about you or call a suicide hotline.

    Second, thanks everyone for voting in and responding to my polls. Your responses have been very enlightening to me. Prior to me coming to EC ,I knew very very little about the plight of my people.




    My response to my question is I have been suicidal in the past but never from issues of me being gay. I voted for option 4 I have been suicidal but LGBT issues had nothing to do with it.

    How about you?
     
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  2. Fallingdown7

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    Yes, in the past. I've moved past those feelings luckily/
     
  3. Austin

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    No, i never contemplated suicide.
     
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    I went for 75%. I guess at the time it felt like 100% although really there were other issues rather than just being gay. My experience (age 14) was somewhere uncomfortably between attempting suicide and almost attempting suicide and being gay, unable to tell anyone, not having an online forum or any way at all of expressing what I was thinking and feeling really contributed to my depression and that state of mind. I remember how amazing this forum was for me when I had another bout of depression in my early 20s and wish I had this resource when I was in my early teens. Talking to someone really helps.

    Wish I knew about that coffee thing at the time, but I started drinking tea in my mid-teens so maybe that helped.
     
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    Yes. I was bullied in high school to the point where I was pulled out of one and expelled from another. I kept failing classes because I was more focused on how I was going to get out of this place rather than thinking that I should try to prove them wrong by making a huge positive shift in my life. Pretty much no one in school accepted me and it made me feel very alone.

    I won't lie, I still think of it sometimes. There are times where I get depressed and sometimes really depressed and start contemplating it again. I always get that " You're useless and no one cares for you " feeling which is more truthful as an adult vs when I was a teen. People care but because you're an adult, you're expected to just figure it out yourself with the help of medication and if medication doesn't work, then you're basically on your own. I've reached out to people and they've said some things, some very comforting things that have helped but that's usually about it. I find that the more depressed I am, the more people don't want to be around me so I try to find something to be positive about instead of throwing my problems at others.
     
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    I never stopped contemplating it... And it contemplates me too, as Nietzsche said.

    It stops for a few months, then it's back again. It seems it's a part of me.

    I've got my own plan to do it safely and quietly, on the privacy of my own home, leaving all arranged and paid.

    What can I say : I'm an owl, I have big eyes who like to contemplate...
     
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    Nope. Never cut myself or seriously considered suicide or was ever seriously depressed. I have my own bad days, but it's never gotten anywhere near that and I hope it never will.
     
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    Yes--I tried to kill myself my senior year in high school. I was out of school for three months. Glad I didn't succeed--things really do get better...
     
  11. NingyoBroken

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    Because I was born in the wrong body, my dysphoria has led me to think suicidal thoughts.

    And then I said, fuck that shit.
     
  12. C06122014

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    I have never and will never contemplate suicide, I have a lot to live for :slight_smile:
     
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    No, suicide is scary and sad. :frowning2:
     
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    Yep, me also. I was all ready to swallow some pills in High School and I got a few down. I did not finish them however. I never told a soul about it until years later in therapy I told my therapist.
     
  15. Acm

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    Yeah, many times. I've never actually tried anything, but I've come very close. Still consider it sometimes, and probably will until I've transitioned. I voted 100% because that was basically the entire reason for me considering it.
     
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    I have been suicidal and have even been dragged to the ER because of it. In the past my sexuality did contribute to my desire to die, but it wasn't all of it. Even now that I accept myself 100%, I still have suicidal thoughts, but the thoughts aren't as frequent or serious (it also probably helps that I've received treatment since my ER visit).
     
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    While I was really angry at first, I got over being gay pretty quickly and I never felt suicidal over it.
     
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    Made me want to.
    But I'm fine now, even though I'm just surviving.
    Don't feel so alive anymore.
     
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    The thought has crossed my mind, but it rarely stays. I have a lot to live for, and the way I see it, closing myself off from life early isn't a great idea if I may never get another chance at it.
     
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    I fleetingly think of it. Meaning basically, I'll have the initial thought, but then my curiosity of all that is out there very quickly gets the better of me, and immediately stops that thought.

    Never, though, has my being LGBT ever driven that thought.