What are you thinking?

Made myself caprese. I wish the tomatoes I'd used were fresher but otherwise, twas good

 

I feel like my motor skills are getting worse by the day now. I wouldn't say it's a stutter or anything, but I get severely tongue tied anymore and it sucks.

 

I drove my dads 2016 Jeep Liberty and it's actually a really nice car.

 

It's already so late and I'm not ready to go to bed. I have to get up even earlier than usual so I can make 100% sure that I'm not even one minute late to work. Bullshit. They never hawk over other people for being late. Shit, even my boss comes in an hour late every single day. Gosh, I'm so grumpy... :/

 

Are all people really pieces of crap. Am I the only good person out there?

Am I weak for being too nice? People take advantage of it all the time.

 

If you're a stupid fuckhead waste of life and you know it, clap your hands *claps hands repeatedly hard*

 

Just had to cancel my debit card because somebody in another state was charging things to my account. Now I have the fun of going the bank tomorrow and pointing out which purchases aren't mine.

 

Had my first day back to classes today, and so far so good! I'm enjoying my classes so far; it's going to be a busy, but fun semester. And I'm going to learn a whole fuckton of neat things. And I'm so glad that I got a student teaching position...I feel like I can relax a bit now because everything so far is working out. Can't wait to get into the classroom and school some middle school kiddos.

 

I wanna know why I insist on staying up late every night. It never fails and now I can't fall asleep until the sun rises. I wanna know why I did this to myself. -_-

 

*claps a fuckton*

 

The debilitating sensations of death are so invigorating. Honestly, if all my projects were done, I'd be cool with dying right now.

 

I can't believe it. I just can't believe it. Even when I try really hard I seem to somehow mess up so badly. It just doesn't make any sense, how could I have done worse this year? How is this even possible? Last year I was only a few marks off a C in maths, and this year I got an E! A freaking E! I managed to drop a grade after spending an extra year learning maths!

D in English, U in English speaking, and E in maths. DUE. Yeah, I'm certainly due something alright- a remark. Also, I didn't do any exam or any sort of work for an "English speaking" test, did I miss some sort of class I was meant to go to or something? Well no wonder I failed then. But how...how can I even fail at speaking MY OWN FREAKING LANGUAGE? AM I REALLY THAT MUCH OF A FAILURE THAT I CAN'T EVEN MANAGE THAT?

People always tell me that I'm really articulate, and that I "must be amazing at English" and that I have a way with words, but I guess not then. Clearly.

*sigh* Well, here's to yet another year of English and maths. I know people that have done English and maths at College about three times- really says something about the education system doesn't it?

I'm sick of this. I try so damn hard, but each time I come out feeling like an idiot. I was meant to have extra time, but did they do anything about that? No! They didn't! They just sat on their arses and sent each other messages about it, but nothing got done!

It's all well and good to send each other messages with "really important" written on them, but guess what? If nothing gets done about them, those messages are just redundant! You can't just put my issues down as "extra-curricular" and do nothing about it. Sure, it may count as "extra-curricular" if you were actually doing something to help me!

But instead no, you just put me down for testing, forget about it and I never get tested. What do I freaking have to do to get your attention? No really, tell me because I'm sick and tired of this!

:bang: :bang: :bang: :bang:

 

I'm not gonna let people walk all over me, so that's why I think I changed this summer. I will confront people. I wish some people would have the same mindset as me, on this site.

 

I really want to listen to this song, but it's so sad (even the singer starts crying), I don't want to put myself through that again.

 

Out of 11 periods I just had to get lunch 5th period. The earliest lunch. Ugh...

 

For the first time in almost nine months, I actually have time to paint again. I'm one of the few people who actually looks forward to hanging out in the laundry room for hours on end.

 

I need a new guitar...

 

I'm going to a football game at the high school I just graduated from, and I finally get to wear a dress-code breaking outfit. (!)

I don't know why I have a thing for dressing "sluttier" than I really am. :lol:

 

That moment when you realize that the person you share three classes with and talk to a lot looks like a younger version of Matt Bomer.