Small Victories

god dang my chest hurts, but i've been waiting for this rather impatiently

 

Yeah well, I'm going back to the gym tomorrow. Weights and everything, I should be able to slim up nicely, and if I end up being muscular, it works for Ronda Rousey....

 

I've just been losing weight since starting HRT.

 

me too, 3 pounds gone this morning compared to last week this time.

---------- Post added 29th May 2017 at 09:27 AM ----------

that it does sister, you'll look great anyway because you'll look like you. the real you.

 

this is actually a setback and a non hrt related victory...
unfortunately my anorexia is back and i really struggle to eat anything... the good thing is i accepted help this time, so i'm not alone in this and i decided to be open about it..

 

that is hugh hun, it is a battle where help is so very much an asset rather than going it alone. good luck (*hug*)

 

Accepting help is a victory (*hug*)

 

I have an appointment date at a private gender clinic. Freaking finally.

 

yaayyyy

 

an odd victory maybe?

so it hit me a little while ago, im 3 for 3. three times I've either been set up for a blind date. with the same guy twice, and once I asked a really nice/cute guy out. the nice guy turned me down saying he had to work and the blind date guy stood me up both times. while I seem to be consistent in rejection, im calling it a victory because I put myself out there trying to date. a bit of an effort for an introvert.

 

I was ID'd for a test at my local college and they didn't believe it was me! The photo on my ID was taken right before I cut my hair/lost weight/etc. They thought it was my sister or something, but I did eventually convince them that the photo was indeed mine.

---------- Post added 30th May 2017 at 05:52 PM ----------

Also also I finally got the courage to post on here not-anonymously!

 

I met Connor Franta today. It was awesome.

 

I got my first binder. It's so awesome, I can literally feel a lot of confidence now.

 

I like wearing a bra.

 

I think I'm seeing a bit more breast development...and OMG stop touching them...I mean keep touching them....wow *shudders*

 

Hi friend! Good to see you on here!!

 

have fun with you my dear.:eusa_danc

---------- Post added 2nd Jun 2017 at 05:25 PM ----------

ok so its been an eventful couple days. i had a great session with my counselor on wednesday, we covered/touched on my past, my focus on my son and how it maybe because im giving him the things i needed as a child but didnt get like support, protection, encouragement, and how i tend to use this and focus on everyone else as diversions from focusing on me. we also talked about compartmentalization and how i keep Sarah separate from D_____. while we both know that Sarah has always been here and how i owe it to her to stop doing that as she was here, is here and will always be here. but i dont need to loose D____ because these are my life experiences and that i am who i am because of them.

yesterday, my son had his grad from the university transition year at the local college, it was such a proud moment for both him and I.

then today i met with my doctor who is overseeing my medical transition, while i was there i told the receptionist that they could call me Sarah in the practice, first time i told anyone to call me that in public, and first time ive had my name called out in public; i loved it. got some scripts renewed and filled her in on my progress, we may up my dosages in august after my next blood screening, we talked about transitioning and options to do with some surgery (in that area) i need to get done and how i need to make sure they dont do something so i cant get surgeries that i may want/need later.

so very eventful, and im counting all of it as victories.