I did it & It's all good :)

I finally came out to my parents! I went to my parents today. On the way I got real nervous. I thought I was going to be sick. Then I listened to the 80's station and started to relax and felt better.

After a little bit there I said to my parents I have something to tell you guys. I was shaking and my voice broke a few times. My mom asked what wrong are you sick, is your heart okay ( I have a heart condition.). I said no, my heart is fine, I am not sick. I have a letter for you to read. I gave it to them. I was so nervous. My dad finished first and with a big smile said 'so you are still my son'. Then my mom stated to cry. I was thinking oh shit she is upset. She said the reason why she was crying is because she felt bad that I felt I had to hide this from them. I explained to them that I wanted to tell them for a long time but with my dad's cancer and my brother's divorce I thought that it was best to wait. Then the holidays came up etc. My dad said so I should have not held it back. He said he was not upset at all. He would have been upset if it was my heart and I needed surgery or something. That would be worrying.

I was so happy. I started to cry from the relief I felt. Then I hugged my dad and sobbed for a few like a baby while telling them I am so happy right now. My mom came over and we had a group hug. Then I knew it was all good. My mom then asked if I was sure and if I was confused at all. I told her that I am not confused. I am way past that stage. She then asked if I went to any therapy or anything. I told her that I had gone to PFLAG meeting for 7 or 8 months. Then I think they got it that I knew. My mom wanted to make sure that I was sure and comfortable about this. I said yes that why I put it in the letter. Then my mom said she did not read the whole letter only up to the point where I told them I was gay. She then read the rest of the letter.

We talked a bit more and I apologized for the timing since my dad was going away and he said that does not matter. I told them I told my sister but did not tell my twin brother and I was not sure how it would go. My dad said tell him with us there if I wanted to, and he felt my brother will be fine. My mom said that he should not be judgmental since its something I was born with. Then my dad had to leave for his trip. My mom and I talked a little more and she was fine. I offered to stay with her she said she would be okay and she would be doing some work.

After I knew that my mom was okay I told her I probably would leave because I was tired. She said well you got a huge load off you shoulders. We hugged and she said 'I love you' and don't ever lower your head and don't let anyone tell you that you are less of a person becasue you are gay. When I left I gave my mom the booklet 'Our Daughters, Our Sons' from PFLAG for them to read. I feel so better now that I am out to them! I will probably sleep well tonight for the first time in weeks. I want to thank you guys for all of your support through my ups and downs. I don't think I could have done it without you. (&&&)

 

Actually I am a late bloomer! I hid it from them for only 4 or 5 years..only!

 

ha ha actually one of the songs I heard on the 80's station on the way to my parents was Oingo Boingo's 'Weird Science' along with Adam Ant's Vive La rock.

 

Thanks! I think they took it almost too well! :dry: Your a twin? I think it will work out. I am not too worried anymore.