New In Questioning

Hey You guys,:smilewave I'm new here, found this site on Google thought it could maybe help, it'd be nice to have some advice. I am a female.. biologically that is. For years I have thought of myself to be more of a masculine person, I liked making my voice deep, I cut my hair to a high an tight, I felt uncomfortable in dresses shorts, anything girly. It feels unnatural if that makes sense, I would sometimes for many nights, go into the bathroom, make a fake beard, bind my chest and pack, it would feel great. But i'm not really sure, if that makes me transgendered. I wish many times I could be a man.. idk... my family is very old fashioned Puerto Ricans. When I told them I was a lesbian, most of them accepted it, but they make me feel bad about it. I brought up once I feel like a boy, and I was crying. but my mother made fun, and said I was dumb for thinking that and I was starting with drama. So since then I would always push the thoughts or ideas aside... maybe someone can give me advice... I cant even enjoy sexual activities, because it just doesn't feel right.. idk. anyways if you've read this far, you're pretty awesome thanks for atleast listening(!)

 

aw thank you