Hi Becca, and welcome to Empty Closets! I hope you will find answers to some of the questions you might have. EC is a great place to explore your feelings and try to understand what they might mean. Welcome aboard.
Welcome --feeling confused is what happens to most people in the start and thank goodness for places like EC. We are all here to help one another so don't feel shy or frightened to comment on in posts, you will find the friendship and guidance needed to move forward.