Hi, In my heart I know that joining this site is the right thing to do, but even in filling in the initial registration page I was tempted to lie, and identify myself as questioning. I have been in denial about being gay for all of my life for reasons that I can not fully comprehend but seem to have a lot to do with not wanting to disappoint others, friends, family, and coworkers. Deep down I know that doing so is irrational, and that I am living a lie, throwing my potential happiness away, but still I persist. My goal for today is just to say 'hello' which as small a step as it is, actually almost never happened. I am after all a hopeless case.
