Okay, this is my first post here. When I was a little boy, I used to have this attraction to girls in my elementary school that had good grades. My parents alwayed teased me that I was having a crush on a girl. I did not know why, but somehow, I felt annoyed each time they raised the topic, even now, though now I know exactly why, of me falling for a girl. When I turned 13, I came across a story about a homoromantic relationship. Somehow, I got interested and even fantasizing myself within the scenario, I began to search for more. Then I started to ponder, could I be attracted to men? It was a touchy subject then since nearly all the people I knew, including my parents were homophobic. Other than that, I go to church. I struggled with this 'query' for nearly two years. Just before I turned 15, my need of masturbation somehow increased and my arousal was-and somehow still is, though I am not quite sure whether I should share this since I am still 16, never mind-gay porn. I became sure that despite whatever others say and despite me being a Christian, although I stand on the side of considering Christianity in theory gay friendly, I am gay. And I had finally came to terms with it, yet i still have fear of coming out. Werbinich (who am I)
Welcome to EC don't worry, we have all been in those confusing, stuck positions and also when we don't want to come out at all to anyone. Hope you enjoy your time here
