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Hey Everyone! After years of wondering what my gender was exactly, I stumbled onto the term "bigender" on the Internet. I knew at that moment that I had finally found the word to describe what I was. In late elementary to middle school, I went through multiple straight and transgender phases before finally understanding myself completely.

I feel as though I have both a boy and girl inside of me. They are the two fundamental sides of my personality. I switch between them like I do between moods, and sometimes I feel a little in between the two. I decided to start a diary at the beginning of this school year to put down how I felt, and now I've found this site. I've given separate names that each side of my personality identifies the most with: Jeremy for the boy, and Juliette for the girl (plus they become an alliteration!).

In terms of sexual orientation, I'm physically attracted to the gender opposite the one I feel I am at that moment. Romantically, though, I don't distinguish, so if I have a crush on someone I'm always attracted to them romantically and with my whole personality.

Depending on which gender I feel I'm in, my personality can change quite a lot. My boy side is more confident, more social, enjoys physical activity more in general, and is in general more extroverted. However, when I'm in my boy mode, I have less control over my anger, and I can explode sometimes when I'm pissed off, though I calm down quickly. My girl side is more shy, a lot calmer, more imaginative, and more introverted. I have much more self-control in that mood, though I tend to stay quietly angry much longer. I'm also much easier to live with when I'm in girl mode, as I'm much less demanding, more quiet, and I don't let my emotions get the best of me, although I'm also more insecure.

To explain my avatar, I have two anime faces representing my two genders. For the flags, I'm French on my mom's side and American (ethnically Irish) on my dad's. I'm completely bilingual - I can speak French fluently and when I visit France, people never know I'm half American.

So far, I haven't come out to anyone, though I plan to come out to my parents relatively soon.