So I just wrote the biggest novel and then my iPad shat itself :/ but I'll try again coz I really need to do this. Okay here goes. My name is Monique and I'm 21 years old. I think I might be a lesbian. I have always known that I'm in interested in girls, but I am just starting to realise that maybe I don't like boys at all. I don't really know what to do. I've been in a relationship with a man (M) for the past 7 years (including currently) and we have 2 beautiful sons together (4&1). M is my bestfriend, we do everything together. He knows that I am bi and he's okay with it but I obviously haven't said anything about the L word yet. I just want to sort my head out first and make sure before I tear my family apart. I don't even know what else to write. I'm just really confused. M and I used to have a sexual relationship but it has been non-existent for a while now as I think he could tell I wasn't into it. I have never been intimate with a girl though (only a kiss once) so I don't even know if I would like it. I think I'm just looking for answers. I've been reading through this website for a few days now and it seems the thoughts everyone had when they were first coming out are what I'm feeling now. I've had depression for going a very long time and could never figure out why but maybe it's because I've had this secret for so long. I tried to tell my mum I was a gay when I was about 10 years old but she just said 'no your not' so I believed her and started trying with boys. I lot of other stuff has happened but I don't even know where to start. Sorry for the rambling :/ Monique
Grr, iPads should not do that. Anyway, hi Monique (lovely name btw) I wish you luck in finding out who you are, and then when you find out, having the courage to tell someone. We're all here for you! (&&&)
Hey, welcome. I've been trying to find out who I am to. This forum has helped and the people are supportive. I hope you find the help you are seeking. Also, my old computer like to crap out on me too, so I feel your pain there.