Hey World, Well I'm not exactly sure where I should begin. I'm a 28 year old guy from South Florida dealing with some sexuality issues. Gay? Straight? Bi? Who knows. I bounce back and forth all the time. Some days I'm all gay, some days I'm all straight, and other days I'm completely asexual with no interest in any gender. I don't feel like I know who I am. I don't feel like I can relate to very many people. I want nothing more than to be comfortable in my own skin and to have the confidence that I deserve. Here's some history. Maybe someone can help me connect the dots. -I've been diagnosed with having Bipolar II disease. -I was molested when I was 9 by my older brothers best friend(male). -I was extremely overweight for the majority of my life, and have recently (2-3 years) lost a significant amount, however the negative self esteem hasn't changed. -I come across as someone with tremendous confidence, a positive outlook, and a pleasant demeanor. Personally, I feel the complete opposite. I really don't like this teetering feeling. I'm walking a tightrope and all I want to do is fall. It doesn't matter to which side. I just want to fit in. Somewhere. Cheers! -Alex
Hi and welcome to EC! I'm sorry you've had to go through so much. (*hug*) If you need to talk to someone, I'm here. (*hug*)
Hey alex. I can relate to you because I was moleseted when I was a child as well. It ate at me and ate at me and I would think day after day "I'm gay I have to be" But then one day I met this guy and he was willing to help me figure it out. So I experimented with him and turns out I like men but I also like women so I'm bi but still. Try to experiment if you are so confused about it. It really helped me.
