I have had many gay friends, and a few intimate encounters with gay men. I feel I deserve the same self respect as anyone else. I have followed the political liberation of LGBT closely. For me the question has been in finding the right partner to fall in love with. I am romantic, affectionate, playful, and teasing. I take pride in having a female personality while sharing this truth with a close female friend. I have gone through a lot in coming out with emotions ranging from shame, betrayal, regret and self-pity. Gay men are the most deserving of satisfaction. While my tastes in everything are not typical of gay crowds such as music and movies. I feel I am becoming a unique blessed gay child of the modern age.:icon_wink I came out of the closet in an intimate relationship with an understanding woman, after my father died. Since then there has been an endless amount of flirtation and a few sexual encounters with other men. The real challenge has been in developing a new experience, that can be open and shared without the fear of losing the orientation I was born with.