Hello, I'm Puzzled! That's my name and I feel that way too, haha. To introduce myself, I am a 26 year old female. I am the mother of the most amazing 2 year old boy. I am engaged to a wonderful man who accepts me for who I am. I love video games, crochet, martial arts, swimming, and football (Denver Broncos FTW!) I found this place through google. I've been feeling confused recently and I didn't know where to go or who to talk to. All of my life, I have considered myself "straight" and have only ever had relationships and intimacy with men. Probably since my early college years, I have felt curious about women and having intimate relationships with them, but being a Christian and coming from a conservative background I usually wrote it off or explained it away as "mere curiosity." In these past few months though, I have really felt a strong pull toward women sexually. I don't really understand it, but I can't explain it away anymore. It is a very powerful drive that I am feeling. What I want, is to find people to talk to. People more experienced in this area than I am. People I can talk to and not be afraid to be honest. And I hope to find that here. I have been honest with my fiance about how I am feeling, and he is very accepting of me and what I am going through, but he has no real experience in this or much advice to give. I am hopeful to find some answers and find a way to accept myself and be at peace. I look forward to meeting the community here. I hope that someone can relate to my experiences and maybe provide guidance and advice in my situation. Thank you for taking the time to read this! :smilewave
Hey welcome to EC. I myself don't have any experience in exactly what you are going through but there will be people here that do. EC is a really great place. It's great that your fiancé is accepting.
Hi! I'm confident EC is the right place to come there are a huge number of people with experience and guidance that is sure to help you. Sorry to say, as a teenager I can't really help you here. But I'm sure there will be someone who will be able to help you sort out your feelings.
:smilewave ---------- Post added 1st Jan 2014 at 01:33 PM ---------- Oh my, I replied to all of your posts and then it disappeared! haha I have no idea what I'm doing... let me try to reply to them again. ^_^ ---------- Post added 1st Jan 2014 at 01:37 PM ---------- silverhalo: Thank you silverhalo! I'm glad I found EC. I think at this point for me any advice would be helpful and always welcome. I don't know that I can find anyone with experience in my exact situation, but I do feel I can find kindred spirits here. ^_^ Kellyve: Thanks Kellyve! I think any age can bring wisdom to anyone if they are willing to listen. I very much appreciate your support! You have had a good experience here? biwinning: I will agree to disagree. It would be no fun being a Broncos fan if I didn't have people who cheered for the other teams too! Thanks for the welcome biwinning! AwesomeGaytheist: I've been a Broncos fan all my life, not much I can really do about it. Thank you for accepting me for who I am! lol Thanks for the welcome AwesomeGaytheist!
Sorry about the replies not showing; there's a post moderation thingy which is rather temperamental. Welcome to EC, Puzzled -- it's great to have another girl around!
Welcome Puzzled! I can't say I have so much experience. I had a 9 year straight marriage, a 4year straight partnership and then BAM fell in love with a woman and when I look backwards find myself noticing how many people saw my rainbow flag flying when I never did. What I CAN offer is honest and open exchange. I am also a mother and grew up in a VERY christian environment. Glad you found this place and glad to hear your fiancee is supportive of you!
Yay! Well, at least I think I got my replies up, haha. Thank you for the welcome! I'm glad to find girls here! I hope to find some answers and make some friends in this. I noticed your orientation said "bisexual." Do you mind me asking how you figured it all out? ---------- Post added 1st Jan 2014 at 02:12 PM ---------- Thank you for the welcome Soleil! Thank you for your support! I am very happy to find someone who has had some similar experiences. I feel pretty lost and confused right now.
Well, I haven't got it figured out for certain yet, but I can still try to answer. Warning: I have no idea how long or short this will turn out. I had always known that women were pretty and attractive and so on, but there was nothing sexual about this for me; I thought I was a normal straight Christian girl. However, when I was 14 I first found a woman hot in a very lesbian way (though it took me a few days to realise that that was what I was thinking, since I just never thought about LGBT issues back then). This sent me into a panic of questions and worries about my potential orientation. Am I straight? God, please let me be straight. Come on, I can't be anything other than straight -- I have a crush on a guy who I've known all my life. I started reading lots of Wikipedia articles on sexuality because there was so much for me to learn -- as I said, I had never thought about this stuff before -- and that's where I found out what bisexuality was. (It's also where I encountered this forum, which taught me that being LGBT is normal and okay.) The more I read and reread it, the more I understood that bisexuality was a real thing and it was what I was. I was still very worried that I was just going through a phase and I would only ever find one woman hot and so on. However, as time passed and I learned more through this forum, I became more certain and I came out to more people. It was nerve-racking, but I'm glad to have done it. Um... I hope that helps. If you have any more specific questions or if I've made no sense whatsoever, fire away. I hope that you can figure out who you are, whoever that may be.
