Hey folks, I’m new and somewhat unsure. I’ve lately developed some issues and decided it would be better to talk to someone, though I need someone with an open mind of which there are few around. I cannot say “I always knew” or “I was always different” though I do feel like I was out of place more often than not. I am a 20 year old guy yet I am not overly manly and hardly have interests that align with most guys other than girls and bikes. Pretty much in the same way I find myself extremely interested in trying on female clothing, but I am not exactly feminine, I think. I was brought up to think of it as “wrong”, which makes me feel guilty or bad for even thinking about it. It just started after the cleaning lady hung a dress in my cupboard, which I took out and returned to my mother and since have wondered how it would feel. Curiosity seems to be the best bet, but I also feel curiosity wouldn’t eat me up like this. I tried ignoring it for some time but it resurfaced recently. When I looked it up I started finding details on trans people and how others had similar or worse issues relating to this. This kinda made me happy, not being a ‘freak’ or ‘weirdo’ by everyone’s standards as I thought the case was. I have never had a girlfriend, my inability to act and my not so manly approach which always drops me in the best friend zone made me question my sexuality as well. I am closer to my best friend and feel comfortable hugging him and such than most girls. I have been told I should “man up” several times before. Then I fell head over heels for a girl which kinda brought Bi into the equation. I am not sure which, if any, are true. Might even be Asexual and very friendly. I have an issue with gender roles and social expectations from certain genders. I am growing my hair long because I want it long, and even dyed it, which seems to drive the “normal” people around me up the walls. I like cooking, though I am still quite horrible at it but I love trying though, which is also apparently too feminine since I prefer the stove to the barbeque. I would rather clean the house or my room, rearrange my cupboard or something than work in the garden or try to fix a car. Then as I mentioned above there is the fact that I really would like to try and cross-dress, I just don’t know how to handle it... yet. I hope to find some answers and friends here.
Hi, welcome to the forum, it's nice to meet you, I hope the people here are able to help you figure out who you are like they have for me.
Confusing feelings SUCKKK. T_T But! EC is good at helping folks out - I'm sure you'll leave here better than you came. Welcome to EC, and hope to see you around. (*hug*)
Welcome to the club :eusa_clap I'm sure you are going to find the help and support you are looking for here. It's a very confusing time when you start to question your sexuality. I myself have gone through, and am still going through, that stage. Strongs bud!
