Or perhaps tangled is a better word to use here. Hello all! I am not completely in the closet any more, most of my friends and family are aware that I'm not entirely straight. I've been saying that I'm a Pansexual with no preference for men and women, but every time I get into a relationship with a man, I simply want to be with a woman. At the moment I have a wonderful, caring, kind, loving boyfriend. Due to past sexual abuse by men, I have had trouble keeping boyfriends. I get cold feet. Scared. A desire to flee into the arms of a woman instead of staying with a man. It happens every time. I'm pretty sure its an insecurity, and I can't help wondering if I stayed instead of running, then perhaps I would lose my fear and find myself falling in love with a man. It's just hard, you know? And I have had so many major life changes the past few months. It's no wonder my rock has been shaken and crumbling a bit!
Hey, Nathifa! Welcome to EC! This is a pretty swell place with some awesome people. I hope you enjoy it. My wall is always open.
Hi Nathifa! First of all, welcome to Empty Closets! Hello hello! I am so sorry to hear your past experiences with men. I am sure you are not the only one who had experienced that. Just take all the time you need to figure things out. No rush. Cheer up! Cigsmoker [Sam]
