I just thought I should say "Hi, I'm shy, but I think I belong here." I'm going to try to keep myself from rushing into assigning labels to what's going on for me, but what I know for sure about myself is that I'm 51, born morphologically male (I.e. an "outie") and thoroughly male-socialized, but something's always been not quite right about me with respect to gender, and some recent experiences have pushed me towards reexamining how I live in the world. Sorry to be vague, but that's pretty much where I am right now, and I really need a safe place to talk through some of this "thinking oh loud" as it were, and since these forums kept coming up in various google searches I've been doing, and it looked like the discussion was consistently helpful and welcoming, I thought this would be a good place to do that. Also, I don't usually write in breathless run-on sentences. But I'm pretty breathless right now. Thanks!
Hi! You're in the right place in which you can share all your emotions and thoughts without fear There's a friendly bunch of people here in fact (!) So, welcome to EC! :icon_bigg
Thanks, I feel welcomed! I'm worried that I might be here too early, though. Fact is, I don't even really know what kind of a closet I'm in. Transwoman? Genderqueer? Maybe I need to come out to myself first?
Well it's never too early to start finding out more about yourself Nyu~ Some of us know relatively early in our lives, and some of us don't Nyu~ I my self didn't officially know until relatively recently Nyu~ Oh and Welcome to EC Nyu~!
I suggest you to leave your own feelings free to express themselves without thinking a lot. About me for example, if my experience could be helpful to you, I identify myself as a guy even if I'm born as female. Can I be a Transguy? A FtM? A Genderqueer? What matter the label...I am a man and this is the most important thing to know at the moment. And I think it could be the same for you. Later, when you are more close with your own gender identity, you could be able to say "Now, I'm ready to change my sex" for example. I hope this could be useful and if you need a friend to talk with, don't forget I'm here
Thanks. All of this has hit me like a ton of bricks just in the past couple of weeks. (Of course, looking back on my life, there were "signs," but I had always dismissed them. Probably not alone in that!)
