Hey, there isn't enough room to explain 50 some years of confusion. So let's go with the nutshell version. So, if childhood experiences determine sexuality, i messed around with cousins maybe thats why i like the male anatomy? Um, key points: I always felt so guilty about "doing things" with guys, and after orgasm had to like leave quick. I caught my dad 3 times in places, and you know what kind of places, (bathrooms, mall bathrooms, forests) but never "red" handed. I have no kids but divorced. Pretty much gave up all my friends and social life and became a bit reclusive. I love women, but i love the male body. I need some therapy, this is the first step, who can recomment someone.
It's good you've come out of your seclusion. Maybe you messed around with your cousins -because- you like male anatomy. A therapist, and other posters, will be more helpful than me.
Welcome to EC! I can see confusion from your side. Anyway, try to check the forums or post a new thread on one of the forums here and I sure you'll get a lot of advise and recommendations. I agree with thrnvlpidj you need someone to talk to in person, if you have time try to check with a therapist or if not just talk to somebody you can really trust.
