Well, I'm a 20 year old man. Up until about two year ago I never had any thoughts of being gay and neither did anyone about me. At the time I was in a relationship with a girl and she cheated and we broke up. So anyway after this I sort of lost any confidence I had and stopped approaching girls etc. Then a few people started calling me gay, mainly just joking on. So after a while I when I was drunk I said that I was. When I woke up the next morning I immediately regretted this. But ever since every time that I'm drunk people start questioning me about my sexuallity, In turn this makes me question myself when drunk. When I was out last night the questions started then later on i kissed two other men. Anyway Ive woken up this morning and I just feel totally depressed and disgusted about it and have even contemplated self harm. I mean I really don't get it Im 100% attracted to women, Ive tried to watch gay porn and it just does nothing for me. When Im sober I only have attraction for women and never question anything. Sorry about the length of the post but any held would be appreciated guys.
Hi there! Welcome to EC!!! First of all, I think you need time to contemplate things. Maybe you are behaving like that just because you haven't get over yet with your EX, though it seems to be a couple of years ago already. Maybe you are not yet healed or maybe there are other underlying reasons why you act like that when you get drunk... You may need time figuring it out... Try seeking help from your close friends and of course you can post on one of the forums here and surely you'll get a number of responses.
Hmm, i'm not too sure. When I'm not at work or uni I just feel lonely and bored and just end up going out drinking with my friends. And thanks for the advice and greetings
I think you need to try and gain back confidence with the ladies.. try to look on the brighter side of things.. and just move on as well as you can.. try working out, it helps with self confidence.. self harm is honestly never ever helpful.. it does more harm than good.. I know that sounds cheesy or whatever, but seriously, self harm doesn't help.. just try and gain back confidence and put yourself back out there
