Ciao a tutti! I'm a 23 year old italian gay and I have been in denial for my whole life. I've now decided that is time for me to start accepting myself for who I am. This is a little bit of my story: Until recently I was never able to come clean even with myself about my feelings about other guys; for many years I lied and made myself believe that my gay thoughts were just a fase.. Moreover I grew up in a very conservative family (and in a very conservative country unluckly), so the idea that I wouldn't be in a "traditional" family was unbearable. When I was 19 I started university and short after I met an amazing girl and I thought "she is the one that I have been waiting for"! One and a half year later we started dating and for the first months everything seemed perfect. Unfortunately the "magic" lasted shortly, my gayness was still part of me. I tried to endure and for a long time I even managed to live "relatively" happy. After 2 years of relationship I finally start to understand that there's nothing wrong with me, that I should start to be honest with myself (and that what I was doing to the girl was wrong, dragging her in my own lie..). Last month I finally had the courage to break up with the girl and now I'm here, hoping that I can find here someone that I can talk to, who understand how I feel. I'm sorry if I made some mistakes, my english is everything but perfect, I really hope that you'll be able to understand Ps some other info about myself I'm a medical student, I'm obsessed with tv series (f.e. GoT scrubs house HIMYM...) and I really like studying other languages (although for now I only speak italian, english and a little bit of french). Ciao!
I don't know French out Italian but welcome, I just came out to myself truly less than a week ago. And I'm 24, so your in good company.
@sheena grazie mille, spero proprio di trovare un sacco di nuove persone con cui confrontarmi e parlare @lostandaffariad:thank you so much, it s good to know that we are not alone
