Hi as you read from the title I’m Jason. I’m 29 I’m in the RAF (not a pilot) so what to say I love reading and writing and a very keen rock love to push myself. So some about me I have had the wife and marriage and all the stuff that came with it until my wife caught me looking at some porn that was not of the straight variety. So although I’m still married I am single. So now I am on a journey of discovery to find out who I am I don’t want to be labelled but I want to know. I guess I have always looked at men in a different way to women but was brought up in a very old fashioned family my dad was army as was my uncle, at the time if you were that way inclined life was very difficult so yet again I pushed it to one side. I know I’m not a coward but sometimes I do wonder if I am. I know I’m not the first man to go through this and I don’t want to get to a point where I am depressed hence why I am here I figured if I could make some friends and talk to people then maybe there is someone who can help. I know I don’t have a photo up at the moment this has nothing to do with being shy I am however out of the country and the internet is crap here. So if anyone would like to chat and maybe help me with this discovery then I am happy to talk. Jason X
Hello, welcome to EC! Well to start you could be Bisexual, but don't forget about the romantic orientations as well. Such as if you think you could be with a man romantically, meaning no sexual intercourse, then you could be a heterosexual homoromantic. Meaning sexually attracted to females but have romantic feelings for guys. Not saying that's what you are! Just throwing out ideas. And side note, don't try to base your orientation off of the porn you watch. Porn desensitizes you and if you watch something new/something you don't normally watch (maybe like gay porn) it might be exciting to the brain, therefore causing confuse. Anyways, in the end labels are labels, you don't need to conform to any if you don't want. Also, feel free to look at the Sexual Orientation threads, you'll probably get more help there.
Welcome Jason! Sorry about your marriage, but I think it will be good for both you and your wife to get things sorted out. You are definitely not a coward. There is intense pressure to follow the heteronormative life, getting married, having kids. Try looking up the Kinsey scale to see if you're not exclusively attracted to men. I agree that you might be bisexual. The forum has quite a few stock avatars to choose, if you wish.
welcome to ec sorry about your marriage. if it ended all because of porn... it makes me sad. of course thats not the full story, but hope youre okay. (*hug*)
Thank you to everyone that has said hello there was some terms used that ive never heard of i gues thats the way of things.cJust to clear things a little it wasnt just porn that made us seperate after talking she asked me out right if i like men and i couldnt giver her a straight answer i think it was that more than anything else that convinced he to leave. I must admit i love the rainbow chicken thing that is awesome. Thank you all its nice to know that there are some nice people out there i hope to be able to talk more with you all XX
