I'm Bi & 2x's the fun. Hey there. I'm new here.

Yes, I'm Lisa 36 & Im a Dec babe. Plus size & beautiful.Tattoos for sure. Bisexual but LOVE the ladies way more. Actually bisexual since birth & came out at 13 yrs old at a 4th of July family party during fireworks display. Don't worry they scared me right back into my nkotb & gem & the holograms plastered closet. Now everyone knows except for close family or they're in denial like the river. It keeps going on forever. Italian Catholics are a weird sorted bunch I would say but of course not all of them are. Oh btw I'm an atheist & have been for at least 17 years of my life. I've been home displaced for 2 yrs as a teen for being a "queer fag" as most of my old school family had said of me. Oh I wish everyone to know @ 19 years old I was legally fully diagnosed with OCD,ADD & Social Anxiety as well as minor PTSD from major childhood & middle school family abuse. My stepfather was a nightmare of drug fueled wheels & a penchant for no reason for it verbal & physical abuse. Btw they were right,verbal abuse cuts worse than the bodily harm. Anywho just a little 411 so you get to know me.

Thanks for your time & chat soon.

 

Thank you for the note. I'm doing good & fighting the good fight. Sort of speak. I'm obviously new on here and joined to make pals & join in on the fun to be had. :icon_bigg

 

Thank you Gabi. I hope all is well for you.

 

Hey David Thank you for the note of welcome.

 

Hey back to you Quem,lovely lesbian & rainbow child

I hope all is well with each of you. I thank you for reaching out to me. So how's the weather. I'm new to all forums so please forgive me if it seems your message to me is ignored. I'm getting the hang of all this. I do answer every note ok.

 

Hi Quem

I miss all the dark clouds and rainy days. Now here in FL it's freaking hot hot hot. 95degrees of blah. I hope your day is going well enough for you.

Hugs,
Lisa

 

Today is NOT a good day.

:tears: hey everyone I hope you're all doing ok.

I've been away a while because I've been feeling ho hum & nothing really to report. I'm alive & not feeling suicidal nor to endanger some one else. I do feel lonely & have been crying here and there for a little bit. I feel stuck & alone. The fear of being a homeless lonely full fledged lesbian is so scary but On the other hand I would rather be homeless scared than feeling trapped & no one to speak too. Lonely,trapped & afraid. Bisexual for comfort of my situation but screaming to be free & %100 & lesbian. I just don't know anymore.

13 yrs with a man & bisexual my who life. I can't be with a real woman "that doesn't fly with him"but I can be with a female love doll? What the hell is he & I doing to myself? Damn it.

Sincerely,
Scared alone & feeling stuck

 

Thank you blueberry hearts for your words. Being 36 I thought this would be easy or at least easier. Btw I thought your profile name said blueberry farts. I did a double take & giggled.