One failed relationship, and two one night stands with exes and i'm back here....

Hey i doubt anyone here even remembers me, but to give you a breif overstory as to who i am.....

My name is Chris, i came out at 19, and also had my first relationship at the same time, family was accepting but the relationship didn't last long, in fact after are first real sexual experience together he broke up with me three days later.

My next relationship happened after i had moved into the city with my family, and i just so happened to have a gay neighbor who was close to the same age as me, we began as friends and are relationship grew pretty quickly, i started drinking for the first time, aswell as experimenting with drugs, by smoking weed. The relationship turned out to worse then my first, making me for the first time severly depressed and miserable, often having self doubts, and wondering why i couldnt be loved as much as i loved. Anyway we had sex several times always safe, but eventually i got tired of being treated one way in bed, and an oppisite way in front of his friends, this time i was the one to end the relationship.

I would go on dates with two different guys after my second relationship neither being very serious, but still being hurt when the 2nd guys i went on a date with moved away ending any chance of it becoming a serious relationship.

My next real boyfriend would be a man who was more then 10 years older then me, but for the first time i would feel like i was in a healthy relationship, with someone who cared for me and who treated me right. eventually truth would unfold and i would find out a few things he kept secret the initial few dates we had, they would not be severe enough to be deal breaker, but still worrysome, he would actually end up cheating with me with his ex, but i would forgive him, we would also have two threesomes while together, both good experiences and safe. Eventually i would realize he was still in love with his ex, and before i could be cheated on again i decided to once again be the one who ended the relationship.

I would take a break from relationships for awhile untill i turned 21, this time i would not worry about a relationship instead i would find something much different then i had ever intended to do, i would have a one night stand. But this would not be with some random stranger, instead it would be with a former friend of mine from high school's older brother, we had a wonderful time and even went to the clubs together aswell, but after having sex i would feel pretty bad as i had been thinking of his brother the whole time.

I would have my first bad experience on a first date, with a disrespectful, uncurtious, self-loving, arrogant, loser,for lack of a better term....who not only made me wait 45 minutes in the rain for him,but also had the nerve to let me eat alone in front of him after he had already promised we would eat together, aswell as have the nerve to ask me to go home with him after.

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All of that of course would have before and during the last time i was here on Empty Closets, as for the more recent mentioned in the title of this....

I hooked back up with my 3rd boyfriend after out of nowhere he contacted me, it was right after him breaking up with his boyfriend, and honestly i felt like a booty call but besides what i thought i decided to go, i even stayed two nights with him, and it almost seemed like old times but then i realized quickly nothing had changed he was still very jealous, and very self-consious aswell as being a little to immature for someone who was more then 10 years older then me.

After that i would pretty much think that i would never hook up with an ex again, shortly thereafter my 2nd boyfriend would end up at the same party as me, one thing turned into another and we ended up back at my place, we would actually hook up twice before we would both end it, realizing that we we're basically using each other and had no interest of dating again.

And finally we have my 4th serious boyfriend who despite being a very charming and terrific guy, had about a bucket full of isssues, aswell as us sharing very little if anything in common. we would have sex and a enjoyable breif relationship but would mutually agree we were just not right for each other.

Anyway if you read all of that, i guess my life must be somewhat interesting, but now i feel like i'm at a new phase in my life, i feel like i really just want a real loving relationship, someone who shares all the same qualities as me, and loves there family and friends, and who is just a good loving person.

I'm really looking forward to getting reaquanted with old friends on here, aswell as perhaps meeting some new ones..

Cheers! :icon_bigg

 

Thanks Everyone! I Love You Guys! and i'm doing fine now, no new love interests yet, and Jim you are totally right about taking it slow with a guy, i really think if i had in the past i would not have gotten hurt as much, as they probably wouldnt have dated me.

Also Alex you know i love ya man, i'm sorry i'm not around as often as i should be but it's hard to keep contact with people, espeacially when im dealing with ton of drama in mylife, but yeah that's all in the past and i'm ready for the future!!