Hello to all. I am a male roughly between 25 and 35 years old. I have dated one woman in my entire life despite many opportunities. I married her, divorced her. I really don't know how best to introduce myself, so bear with me if you will. Ever since I could remember, I have felt different. I have almost always been shy around and towards females. I am not shy around males. I have "experimented" some as a kid with both heterosexual and homosexual things. Frankly I had no issues with the homosexual experiments but did have issues with the heterosexual experiments. I find myself attracted to both genders (and those in between as well). However, I cannot see myself engaging in homosexual acts despite the obvious attraction. This has caused me much grief. My point is, at this time I appear asexual to others as I have been single for about five years now (after being married for four years and being single my entire life before). However I am confused, so very confused. Sometimes I will find myself attracted to the opposite sex and no attraction to the same sex. Sometimes I will find myself attracted to the same sex and not the opposite sex. This is what I suspect led to the downfall of my marriage. I was not always "interested" in my then wife. I feel I need to come to a better understanding as to my orientation and who I am before I try to get into another relationship. That is why I have decided to come (back) here to Empty Closets (I was a short term member a LONG time ago but fell away due to marriage issues). I have love to give, however am confused how to give it. I also have medical issues. I have Attention Deficit Disorder, possibly high functioning Aspergers (unconfirmed, not sure if I want to know) and a bit of dyslexia. I have also let myself go quite a bit over the last decade, however I am working on it. Sorry if this has been an odd or long winded introduction. Doesn't help that I am fairly tired from a long day of work. Thank you all
