Help. I'm 13 years old and I'm insanely in love with another girl. I feel that I've been bisexual ever since I could feel for someone, and it's killing me inside. I know I'm young. So please don't scam on that. I think that a lot of boys can be cute and handsome, but the idea of kissing one or doing anything further... disgusts me. I only see myself with girls in the future, but my mom is against me being gay. She does not feel that they should rot and what not, but she is not fully accepting of the idea, especially with me. When we're talking in the car sometimes a conversation about gay marriage or such will come up, and I constantly try to ease her into it. But, not enough for her to suspect, hopefully. It just hurts me when she tells me how ugly gay people are, and that she'd be mortified if my brother turned out gay.. She always talks about my future boyfriends and what I should want from them, but I never know quite what to say because that's not at all how I feel about boys.. I wear a lot of boy clothes, and my mom hates it. She's told me I looked like a lesbian. I don't care if I look like a lesbian, but I do care that my mom is bashing on it. The girl I've fallen in love with hugs me a lot and recently has been trying to hold my hand, and I'm never sure how to react because I feel like she'll think I love her, only because I do. And I'm scared of this because of conversations I've heard from others... I know I'm young, but I'm just scared that this is how it's going to be in the future, and that I'll fall in love with girls, but they'll never like me back. I have dreams about it all the time and I can no longer convince myself that I am straight. I'd rather no one know till later in my life, but I don't know when or how. I don't want anyone to act different around me. I'm constantly suppressing my feelings. I'm scared.
Well, let's backtrack for a sec - how do you know you're bi? Knowing someone's physical appearance is attractive is different from actually being attracted to them... From one post, it sounds like you're definitely leaning towards the lesbian side of the Kinsey scale, but I don't know much about you.. I'm also figuring things out, so totally not the expert here
That's what I'm also struggling to figure out... At times I feel a slight emotional attraction to a guy but it's rare and forced. But, even is so, my emotions towards girls are way more severe...