Hi everyone, I have been visiting this site for weeks , then finally had the courage to join. I am female , married to a man , I fell in love with a female friend. I love her so much I never knew I could feel that way about someone. I am 32and when I am around her I feel 17 again, nervous, excited and blissfully happy and of course the chemistry is so strong. I am here because this is the first time I have ever liked a girl emotionally . I think I am bisexual but I have always been sexually atracted to females more, but have never dated or kissed nor wanted to marry or have a relationship with a female .I am married, I was raised religious, I like men , I dont understand myself.. I am only aroused by the female body ,why did I only imagine marrying a man and dated only men. Why dont I have orgasms or get aroused with my husband but have amazing orgasms when I self pleasure usually after watching lesbian porn, which I have been doing since I was 16 .Now after 7 years of a happy marriage 3 kids I fall in love with a woman, I have dreams of proposing and marrying her, I cant of course I am not comfortable with this revelation. I fear I may be a lesbian and surpressed it somehow. But why and how, do I like men or just appreciate them how do I know the difference, I check out women all the time. I just dont understand myself all these feelings so late and at the wrong time, why didnt I at 16 watching girly porn realise instead of hiding it . Now im in love with someone I cant have, im married to a great guy happily a wonderful friend I love but im not sexually attracted to .I cant come out, I am confused, I am scared. I dont know thats me. Hello everyone.
Hello! You sound very confused, but that's okay! It's normal to question yourself. There are lots of people here who can help you sort out your feelings. And eventually you will, I know it! Its hard to separate your feelings of both sexes because you can be attracted to them very differently. It's also important to remember that being attracted romantically and sexually are different, and many times its just as hard to separate those feelings too! It's a lot to think about, and it can be overwhelming, especially if you have been identifying as straight for so long. I know, I've been there! I wish you the best of luck sorting out your feelings! (*hug*)
Hello and welcome to EC! It's a pleasure to meet you. If you're questioning and scared, then please feel free to ask as many questions as you need to. That's what this place serves as. This is your haven that you get to have (for free). Please don't hesitate and go find out why this place is nurturing and caring towards those like you. We really mean it .
Lol....Scared32....lol....we have the same problem...I'm married too and I have a son. AND SAME SCREEN NAME....AAND WERE THE SAME AGE... lol too funny......only difference is that I'm "in love" with my boss, who's most likely straight and married...who's using her sex appeal to manipulate me.....I'm hopeless....
@ scared777 its nice to know im not alone. The woman I love we are friends she is bi , we have great chemistry and a really deep emotional friendship , she makes me laugh , it was so easy to fall for her, I think she is fantastic, she said she would be with me if there was a possibility, but I am married, just getting back to school , I am moving, I am gonna miss her so much. She has a boyfriend. And who am I kidding I cant date a woman, it would shock my entire family , friends whom im positive will not accept it or understand since they all including me believe the bible. So I guess from a religious stand point I did the right thing supressing it. It would be nice to meet others who simply cannot come out. I would like to tell my best friend and my husband im bisexual but I dont see it going smoothly. My marriage is great except for the sexual part , he always says im not affectionate enough , and also my lack of orgasms bother him, he wants to please me I just cant get there emotionally, but im trying and have been trying since I met him. No marriage is perfect. ---------- Post added 22nd Jul 2014 at 09:30 AM ---------- @scared777 thats not nice if she is messing with you.
I hear you completely...the woman I'm attracted to is so beautiful, so intelligent, so amazing...and is married and I'm assuming straight but she knows my situation and I think picked up on the fact that I'm crushing on her....she tells me I'm cute and sweet but last night we were supposed to ...we'll I thought we were going to meet so that or sons could do a trial martial arts class together...and she didn't show up...her husband did...EPIC FAILURE! I don't want to like her ....by the way....she smells really good too....like flowers. What's wrong with me? I am setting up myself to get hurt....My problem is that I fall for people regardless of what their sexual orientation is ...and usually there straight. So pathtetic.
Hey and welcome to EC and I hope you enjoy your time here and that you make new friends who will both advise and support you I. Your effort to come to terms with your sexual orientation I also hope that you share your experiances with this wonderful community and it's equally amazing members Good luck And if you ever need a friend feel free to contact me
@scared 777 Yes I think I can fall for anyone too, as long as I like there personality. If you figure out how to get over her let me know, I have been trying and failing miserably. ---------- Post added 22nd Jul 2014 at 04:35 PM ---------- I dont understand why she would play games with you though
Don't be scared, most of us were when we realized we were Gay/Bisexual/Lesbian/etc. So really you'll be fine.
