Hey everyone, what is going on!? Im new to this place, and I came on here because I feel like I have found myself, and when I found myself I was very excited. So for the first 16 years of my life I never had any gay thoughts. I never really payed attention to my actual attractions, but I knew back then that I didnt like men in a sexual way, and I had a crush on several different girls. However, after my 16th birthday I became a bi-curious guy, and I was really shocked and really nervous about my sexuality. After a year my 17th birthday had come, and I was 90% sure I was bi. I didnt really seem that strongly attracted to men yet, and women were getting less attractive. Then After a few months I masturbated for the first time, and it was to a man! I felt relieved that I had finally done it, but scared that I realized I was sexually attracted to men. Then as more weeks went by, the more I felt attracted to men and the more nervous I got. I was still getting errections to women once in a while, but not as much as men. Then one day I made that very courageous decision, and I started to watch gay porn. I LOVED it!! I found some of it very sexy and irresistable. I had watched lesbian porn before, but it didnt turn me on to this extent. Then, after thinking I was bisexual for sure, things became more confusing. I am around 17 and a half years old now, and about a week ago, it finally dawned on me that I like men very much, and it will be that way for my entire life. Even though I was very scared in the past about being gay, Now I am totally okay with the possobility, and I could not be happier about the decision I have made. I wouldnt say Im 100% gay, because there are still some attractions to women lying in me, but there are not enough to really be an even bisexual, or even be bi with a preference for men. I would say there is a 75% chance that I will be a gay man, and for the first time ever, IM OKAY WITH IT!!! If the right girl did come along though, I would take a good look into it. But I have realized and decided that my main attractions are to men. Anyone else go through a similar experience where you think your straight, then your bi-curious, then your bi, and then your finally gay, and you realize how much you actaully love and respect it? Well that is exactly what happened to me, and I am so happy with my sexuality because I want to be myself. There is one final problem though, and that is that I am not going to be open at all about my sexuality. I am never telling my family, and only very close friends that. I trust will know. That is just the way I want things to be
Welcome to the forum!! It's a great place! There's no rush to do anything, just take your time. You will reach a point when you will want to tell people about who you are, but again there is absolutely no hurry!
Hi, Welcome to EC. It's really a great experience about how to face the reality about your orientation. I'm really proud of you even though I once felt really ashamed of my self because being a gay. But now, I fell okay with that. However, I still don't know how to explain this to all of my beloved people. I don't want to hurt their feeling. I also don't want make them hate me. I'm really confused. Btw, Hope you have a great time in this forum! Nice to meet you
Hello and welcome! I have to admit, your experience of finding yourself out was, to say the least, interesting. I hope you'll have a great time on here! Lots of love, Andy