Hello Everyone

Hello everyone, I am Frances, I have just admitted to myself that I am gay and want to be female and love dressing like a (conservative) female. That alone has lifted a hugh weight off my shoulders that I have been carrying around for a lifetime. Today, was the hardest day of my life...today I told my mom, she is the only one I have ever told. She said, "You are mine, don't ever be afraid to come to me for anything, I will always love you no matter what"...

This past week was my first time going out dressed in women's clothes, I wore a plain pair of faded jeans, a blue and white pinstriped button down shirt, and flip flops. It just felt so natural(!) It felt so good I went right out and bought another outfit.

 

Thanks, it's going to be a long rocky road, but not as long as it was getting to this point. I never allowed anyone to get close from fear, embarrassment, rejection...you know all the usual stuff. Mom made me feel worthwhile. I told her I had contacted a therapist over in Pa. and was waiting to hear from the office. Back in the winter of 89-90 I had mental melt down and spent about 8-12 weeks in a hospital, I really can't remember how long I was in there. I never told them the real reason that put me there, I blamed stress, job, family etc. I think the time has come to try and right my life. Most of all I think the time has come to forgive myself for being born this way. What was it Shakespeare said "To thine ownself be true"?

 

Thanks everyone, a hugh weight has been lifted just telling mom, even some of the guilt I have felt all my life is starting to ease. I hope to make many friends here, I can feel the love already You are making me smile...