hey everybody. alright. so im fairly new here and i'd like to introduce myself. im 16 and in high school. ive got some good friends. and probably some not so good ones. im planning on coming out this summer and im actually kindof excited. im so sick of my life being a HUUUUUGE lie. :eusa_liar i cant wait to tell my friends, some of them, but my family. thats what im REALLY afraid of. my so called "best friend" naomi, i dont think she likes gay people. and she thinks we all go to hell and shit. and yeah. she obviously doesnt know that i am gay. or im sure she wouldnt say that, at least in front of me. so shes my friend im afraid im gonna lost when i come out. i really feel bad because she always sticks up for me when people would say i was gay. not that thats even something needing sticking up for. but i still feel bad. cause of the lying to her. im planning on telling my friend emily first. (one of my true really good friends) i really trust her and she has gay friends and she says she likes gay people. so im excited to be able to tell her. cause i really am ready to start being myself. and living my life the way i was meant to. me and emily usually go to the beach the last day of school, when i was planning on telling her, but shes going to texas. so when she comes back we're going to the beach like right away. and thats when i wanna tell her. i really have NO CLUE what im gonna say to my parents or how theyre gonna react. they sent me to a lutheran school from preschool to 8th grade. but theyre not really that religious. my mom doesnt say bad things about gay people. but my dad says things sometimes. but not like... super bad. im scared that they'll react badly and even not want me to live with them anymore. ohhh man. and my little sister. wow. but im hoping to have a plan for that by then... soo yeah. im scared about being out in high school. but ill be a junior next year. and there are other gay people in my school and they seem to do okay. so im gonna do it. and im just getting frustrated. :bang: &&& i want to try to find loveeee. id really like to thank becky g for really giving me the courage to wanna be able to do this, for giving me the think to this website so that i could hear all of your amazing peoples stories and advice and whatnot, and for listening to me bitch about stuff all the time. youre such an amazing person. not gonna lie. wish you were my mom. (*hug*) whoever read all that. thanks. im sure ill be posting more in the future. and ill be sure to post when i finnaly get the right opportunity to come out. (the beginning of June im thinking) thanks everyone. you people are truely awesome. :icon_bigg <3
Hi mrrolemodel! Im the same way im kind of wondering how other people would react. It can seem overwhelming. If you feel nervous, try to find out how the people you want to tell feel about the issue. And from there see if you'd still want to tell them. Like your parents for example, if they arent against gays at all then it would be okay to tell them. Try something similar with friends and decide where to go from there. Hope that helped a little =)
It sounds like you have a plan ready to go, which is excellent. It definately helps to tell someone that you know will be cool with everything as the first person. I hope everything goes really well for you! Also, please forgive me if I sound rude at all, but would you be willing to use a more standard font? I had a hell of a time trying to read your post (and I ordinarily would have simply skipped over it for that same reason).
Welcome to EC. I'm glad you've come to accept yourself as you are. The more I accept myself, the better the whole world around me has started to look - every aspect. Good luck with telling your friends and family. Sounds like it won't be that bad - but take it the speed you want to. (And yes - I also had trouble reading your post in that font... maybe cuz I'm 'old')
arrite. sorry about the font. i just love using them. haha. no problem using a different one though. thanks for still taking the time to read it though. i appreciate it. :icon_mrgr
