I'm not sure why I'm here. I'm as social as a door knob. I wear a suit of armor everyday to keep people away, but it keeps me locked up too. I don't have friends because that would require that I remove the armor and allow someone to get close to me. I daydream about having a close friend, but am too big of a (insert your own adjective) to take off the armor and risk the pain. There are days I just want to give up. I've convinced myself that coming out of the closet (if I could even see the doorway anymore) wouldn't change anything. I'd still keep people at a comfortable distance and eventually die as a lonely old man, so why risk alienating the family and risking it all?
(*hug*) I'm so sorry man. I know how crushing that can feel to be scared of interacting with other people. Have you been to a psychiatrist? I know it's super scary, but I was able to learn that I have Social Anxiety and get medicine. I'm still pretty anxious, but I'm a lot better than I once was. Anyways, welcome to EC! I hope you can enjoy yourself here and find some support and help. Good luck!(*hug*)<3
Hello and welcome! Social anxiety can take out the best out of people and leave them hollowed out. I, myself, suffer from social anxiety and I know what you're going through. What helped me a lot, as Ashe pointed out above, is seeing a therapist. Lots of love, Andy
Hi there and welcome to EC.. I do understand keeping your walls up to stop from feeling hurt and vulnerable, I hope you are able to feel more open here in this forum.. I find I am more open in forums like this and another like this I am on then I am in real life with family and friends.
