Where to begin? Ive been debating about joining a support group for awhile now. Im 39, divorced with 3 kids. In high school i had a relationship with another girl, i loved her but she was very troubled and left me for a much older woman. I really thought it was wrong to pursue any relationships with women and wanted to be "normal." I got married to a great guy and i did love him but as time went on i still questioned my sexuality. 18 years and 3 kids later i met an amazing woman and fell in love. There were other problems in my marriage and i found what i had been looking for all my life. Ive been with my girlfriend for a year and a half now, i want it to be long term, possibly marriage. I know she loves me and wants the same, however she is married. She feels stuck in a situation she cant get out of. I know now theres no turning back. Im so in love with this woman. She completes me and im happiest when i am with her. I just hope that there is a future for us. I cannot imagine my life without her. But i feel alone at times, keeping our relationship secret. I want more, and at least for now, cannot have it.
Hello and welcome . You might have a look at this thread (and similar ones): http://emptyclosets.com/forum/sexual-romantic-orientation/143948-has-never-happened-before-12.html
Welcome...so glad you joined. Your situation is very much like mine. Glad to have someone who understands the range of feelings that this experience brings with it. Good luck in your journey. Reach out for support whenever you need to. thinking of you.
