Well I've never been to a site like this, and it's a good thing I'm not speaking because I can hardly even think of what to type. I am 42 and was born bi, but learned to be straight on the outside due to my Catholic upbringing, and also the environment I grew up in, where not being straight would be hazardous to your health. Also, some awkward though innocent situations with girls that were really embarrassing and confusing. When I became an adult out on my own I was bi but mostly straight. I believe now that that had a lot to do with this sense I've had all my life that I'm not really myself, I could be happier, etc. For the past year I have been totally celibate, feeling I just needed a break from men. But now it's more than a break, because I don't miss men one bit. In fact, I feel like I've taken off a mask or something, even though I am still alone. When I think about confessing even to myself that I am probably a lesbian, I get a feeling similar to when I went skydiving. Like this is really crazy, but I've paid my dues and I'm up in this plane so I just have to do it.... All I have the balls to say so far is, I really really THINK I'm a lesbian :smilewave Looking forward to joining this community and maybe getting the balls to say more.