Yeah hi I'm Chris, a dorky, introverted 18 year old from southern California. I've always assumed I was cisgender for a long time but as of recent, I found I'm having a hard time understanding what I should look at for reference that makes someone "definitively male". I don't like many sports, I'm really feminine, I'd ideally prefer a much more feminine body, and I've been a secretive crossdresser since like, middle school, but I have no idea if I should dub it as a fetish or not. It's excruciatingly hard to tell because I'm asexual and I don't know if my preference to women's fashion should be taken as some masqueraded, hidden fetish or not because I literally can't understand what that would look like for me in the first place. It's excruciatingly irritating. So hopefully I can properly address it soon here, I don't know. Personally, I don't think I'm a full-on MtF trans individual (granted this forum helps me with properly identifying with who I'm bound to be), but... I don't know. I don't really understand gender. I mean, do I just put a girly hourglass figure at one side of a spectrum, and a buff sailor at the other end? Does society's gender norms inherently contribute to what human minds interpret gender as in the first place? I'm really not sure how to properly interpret gender at all. I'm hoping that this forum will guide me in the right direction for this type of stuff. Anyways nice to meet you all, I hope I'll become active here.
Hello, Hi! As to your concerns, if you dislike your male bits and want female parts you could be transgender. Otherwise you could just be a crossdresser. Being male doesn't mean you have to be super 'manly'. x3
