Welcome to EC brando1985, I joined a couple of days ago and it has been an eye opening experience so far, many supportive replies and many similarities .. we're not alone, and definitely you are not alone. Nice to have you on EC.
Well guess what you came to the right place there are tons of friends here . So with that I say welcome !
I'm just about as new here as you are, and I can already tell you that you won't find a more friendly internet community anywhere. Plus, the diversity of people on this site means that no matter what you feel, you can be sure there will be others who have had similar experiences.