Hello & welcome to EC I hope that we are able to help you, somehow. And although I might not be able to be, well very helpful considering your situation, I do hope that if you ever need a friend you are able to come talk to me or Any of the other members best of luck, and like I already said don't hesitate to contact me if you need a friend
Post in the forums. There are people who give very helpful advice there. I hope you manage to sort this out.