Hello Everyone, I'm a newbie! I'm 100% woman, 30 years old and physically disabled. My main issue is I'm confused bout myself. I've always been attracted to both sex but I've never been in a relationship with a girl. To tell you the truth not sure if I've been in a real relationship with anyone. My main confusion is my body. My physical disability is Spina Bifida. I can walk but I wear braces just below my knees and I use crutches to help me. I'm paralyzed or faint feelings in some areas. My legs, breasts, and mostly my genitals. Off and on I've tried masturbating but I could never really get aroused. I've even tried watching all different types of porn since I was 16 but It never lasted. It only takes a few seconds then it goes. To be more specific my main arousal are watching vigorous sex with straight porn when the men n woman, lesbians, shemales, and bondage. As long as they're all shaved except for there head of course. So, I'm pretty much a virgin except for the first time 5 years ago I gave my last bf oral sex. I've never had intercourse whatsoever. They reason why is I'm kinda a germ-a-phobe and I grew up in a very religious household to never have sex until I was married. I think that terrified me into not having a relationship with anyone. Now I don't know what to do with myself.
Hello and welcome. You might have a look here: Am I Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, or Transgender? There is sexual and romantic attraction... And you might have a look here: What is pre-orgasmic? | Go Ask Alice! You might think about talking to a counselor to help you sort out your feelings... (*hug*)