:smilewave I had the misfortune of coming from a small town in the Midwest. I knew I would never be safe there. I learned in middle school when I asked an older friend to explain to me what "sexy" and "hot" meant, and she just stared at me like I must be kidding. Everyone thought it was funny for a few days that I was so developmentally behind that I did not experience sexual attraction, but gave it up before long "because it wasn't like I was gay" ... This really hurt me because sometimes I felt like I cared about my best friend more than I should have. Sleeping in the same queen sized bed with her at sleep-overs scared me, I had to resist the urge to ask if she liked to cuddle. Now, looking back, I do not think she would have thought anything of it if I had asked, we were really close, and it is more acceptable for girls to do that than guys... At this same time I was being verbally abused in my home, and not because of my orientation (because I wasn't sure what I was back then, and really didn't think about it). I made it through the suicide and depression that came with that, and it saved me from the depression of coming to terms with myself... I made it through high school and got out of that town, headed for a college more than 5 hours away, with every intention of being fully myself from the beginning. Here I have been able to build new relationships on being me, and not being ashamed. Although not a single person back home knows, I have not reached the point in my life where I feel that I owe them anything - even the truth. :eusa_clap
:welcome: I'm really sorry for what you had to go through and i really hope you're better now.anyway have fun here (the website really rocks and everyone is simply awesome) Also i won't enslave you when i get world domination ^^ if you want any specific part of the world you can have it:icon_wink
Hello and welcome Take part... ask questions... people like to help (&&&) People here are accepting... I'd say just take part and speak your mind
Hi Everybody here is very accepting and helpful! Feel free to ask and answer any question. I think we all found being true to ourselves a liberating experience! As regards the people back home you are the one that decides what, when, how and if you tell them. (&&&)
Hello, and welcome to EC! Thank you for sharing your story with us, and I know many can relate and you'll get some terrific and helpful feedback. So nice to meet you!
