It's sad to look back and see how wrong I was to act as if I had any real understanding of sexuality. I believed so strongly that I was simply asexual and I couldn't understand why the experiences of others were so different from my own. Suddenly my explanation that I feel as if I'm disconnected from sexuality and that it feels outside of the boundaries of who I am, has taken on a whole new meaning. As I feel disconnected from my body because of dysphoria, I also feel disconnected from seeing myself in a sexual context. It's funny, in another thread, I really wanted to remain anonymous not because I feel uncomfortable about anything I said or will say in the thread but because of everything I said outside of this thread. Anyway, hopefully from now on I will stop acting as if I am not completely lost and confused. :icon_redf Thank you for helping me realize that I am not alone and for helping me understand that I can't stop running away from who I am. (&&&)
Thank you! Not the best of introductions, overthinking things as usual... Sorry, it's surprisingly hard to figure out how badly I'm posting without a like button. :icon_redf Oh well, maybe I'll write a better one, sometime in the future!
In one way or another, all of us are trying to make sense of a complex world. I don't know of any hurtful things you said, but after this sort of apology, I couldn't hold any of it against you. <3
