New member here

While I have identified as bisexual for nearly 5 years, I feel that identifying as “Gay Bisexual” may be a better reflection of who I am. I believe that bisexuality is a continuum, and I definitely fall into the segment with a stronger preference for other guys. I’m definitely not straight, even though that’s the orientation that I project to the world.

I’m at a point in my life where I feel that my life is a bifurcation of my true self and a faux self that has evolved around the life I’ve wanted to create by pretending to be straight. I've felt this way more and more lately - that somehow my true self is still dormant in a cave that I've heretofore only partially explored.

I remember feeling a sense of deep longing trigged by this cave before I started to accept and explore my gay side, the period of time when the denial began to thaw. I once again feel the tug of this place, albeit in a more integrated way.

Joseph Campbell - “The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.”

Peace